neww stories

woww i noticed iv been blogging once a month hahahha >.< thats bad.. my poor page look so lonelyyy haahah && i need to change my layout o.O its gettin old haha well newhoo ohh goshh its DEC already.. Christmas is commin fastt nd 09 is bout to end ohh damnn..09 has been the crazziest yer of my whole entire life.. all the dramas, the fights, the fun, loosing && gaining of frenz,.... mahnn idk but im hella ready for yer 2010 to comee..



well last night i kinda broke down infrnt of my bf >.< ehhh.. idk i juz think too muchh nd i let get into me... but glad to kno he really does care... he came over even tho it was hella late nd he has skol earlie in the morning for me it proves alot cuz he ddnt juz ignore how i feel nd he actually wantd to comfort me.. i ddnt tell him the reason tho && i dnt wanna tell him the reason.. i mean idk i shudv but i dnt see the point it was my fault i saw all those but still.. ehh imma let diz one pass but next tym it happenz im not gon stay quiet... well cause of last night i learnd that i shud put my guard up even tho u trust that person alot humanz are humans there gon messd up at sum point nd i dnt wan wait for that day to come nd i have nuthin guardin me...
i lyk him alot && i already love him... im rely scared ughhhhhhhhhh
"GUGMANG GI ATAY" maoray maka patay lol...

rollercoaster day

sooo 11/11/09 is prolly the most random-ishh, gayy-ishh, suck-ishh nd OK day of my life.. lol..

got in a lil fyt w/ the boifren =/... i guess that was kinda sorta our 1st fyt.. lol.. it was cuz of sumthing stupid but ehhh watever we fixed it nd now wer goood again..

woke up nd got a call frm my aunt that my lola / grandma in the PHIL (wel shes my real grandma's sister.. shes d only lola i grew up w/ cuz most of my lola live far or died already) =/ so that made my day crappy.. RIP lola Oning.. i kno ur in GOD's hand now =]...

&&& d rest of the day i was out w/ my mom shoppin furnitures nd things for hte house.. i like our house nowww wohoooo.. &&& ohh i forgot to blog bout thiz but i moved to a new house hahaha soo yeaa thatz why wer decoratin..

well imma go get ready gon hangout w/ the boifren =]

pissdd off

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr i swear to BOB(lol) diz biotch is pissin the shii out of me.. diz past few mnth iv been holding it in tryin so hard not to let it bother me but i swear it juz keepz gettin worste nd worste fckk.. i swear she needs to fuckin back off nd mind her own shittttttttttttttttttt >=/.. nd let me fckin be...
she might think i dnt notice it bcuz im not sayin nething but juz keep pushin my buttons biotch nd il show u wsuhppp... ya'll kno im nice but fck me over nd il show u wsuhp..

ehhhhh people these dayz..nd ohh forgot to say the reason why im soo pissd is bcuz diz is the 2nd time diz happend.. it happened before.. goshh SHEEE JUZ LOVEE TO MEZZ W/ THINGS I LIKE.. FUCK YOU HOEEE

ehhhh

bcuz i feel sad so im blogging lol


ehhhhhhhhhhhh watever mahnnn im done showing how i feel to people..ive been so weak nd too emotional.. i tink its time for me too start keeping how i feel to myself nd not show too much nd care too muchh... (: yeaa imma do that..

well juz had a serious talk w/ him nd i mean its not even bad i get wer his commin frm but idk it fckin made me sad.. hahaha fckk dumbasss me.. i shudnt let it affect me but it is... but ehhh it made me realized stuff so i guess.. =]]

well ehhhh iono wat else to say so byeezz

no control

todayy iv been gettin different kinds of emotions..
lyk im happy den next minute im sad then next im angry.. WAT THE FUCKK IS GOIN ON.. =/ i swearr i woke up around 7ishh today nd i was pissd as fckkk cuz of sumthing.. then i went back to sleep nd i woke up happy... then i was goin thru my piktures nd i saw piktures frm the past nd it made me cry haha >.< ughhh damnittt
i hate diz i feel hella BI POLOR lol.. ehhh wateverrr

well rii now tryin to decide weither i shud party in LA or here in SB idk ughhh watever happenz happen =]]]]]]

cnt stop smilling =]]]

sooo today went to skol late like always hahah
stayed in my spanish class the wholeeeee time lmfao..cuz these past few dayz i always leave class for an hr to go see him but today i ddnt to see him =/ thats the only sad part bout my morning..
went to math class.. && so i talkd to diz guy frm class nd omg his half filipino nd he was all lyk "i like ur tat" hahaha.. stayed in class for an hr then left.. while walkin diz two random guys came up to me nd said my tat is koo.. hahahha my tat is gettin hella attention today gezz lol ..

soo i was textin himm earlier rii nd he tried to text me in tagalog it was sooooo cutee nd even tho wat he was sayin was wrong it was iffin adorable.. so i had to bust out asking my Vietnamese frens how to say stuff nd online translation it was funnn (: i like how he said "GUSTO KONG YAKAPIN MO MASYADONG" lol iono f he said he wnts to hug me or he wnts me to hug him LOL hahahhah (:.. idk rii now i cnt stoppp smilingggg..     


i wnt to see him soo bad rii now but ehh we cnt... he has test to study soo i guess fon is OK for 2nii haaha && pluz i hav alot of art project due 2morow >.< shii i shud start on that soon... ehhh idk its gon b weird not seeing him before i sleep

well idk wat else to sayy..SOO IM OUTTT =]

updatingggg

soooo yheaa its been dayz since my last update been lazzie nd i rely had nuthin to update bout but now i do soo here i am.. LMFAO

well these past few days had been GREATTTT (:
been happyyyyy againn goshh i dnt remember the last time i was diz happy hahaha
but idk im relly scaredd >.< i juz dnt wan get hurt again.. but ehhh watever risk is a part of life juz like wat the sayin say "If you risk nothing, then you risk everything."

soo yeaa theres diz one boi nd he makes me soo happy idk wat he has he juz makes me smile all d time.. he stayz out late w/ me even tho he has work d nxt day.. he always bust out missions for me.. idk overall his awesome.. =]
but idk last nii he said sumthing that kinda bothered me >.< ionoooo... but watever im not gon let it bother me i meannn if he says i hav nuthin to worry bout then i have nuthin to worry bout.. I GUESS.. lol hahah eff not gon tink bout diz nemor

well today is monday again blahh skool.. but watever it means imma see him at skol (: so its koo.. lol... i dnt even kno f we hav HW or not hahaha ishh too lazzy to check.. wel im off gon get ready..

i feel soo fat

uhhhgg i need to start dieting/working out.. bohoooo i feel lyk a whale =/.. i eat 3-5 times a dayy OHHHEMMGEEE yuckkk.. lol i can actually see it in my face its gettin wideerrr soo grostt.. soo yeaa starting today imm limit my eating to once a day.... i cnt deal w/ the fatness its makin me deppress hahahahah lookie my stomach soo widee.. noo moree "coca cola body".. haha u gotta b filipino to kno that insiderrr I THINKK.. lol


well rii now im watching DEGRASSI GOES TO HOLLYWOOD.. hahah yess i watch that showw lol hahahah sooo bored...

randommness

blahhh today ddnt do muchh... went grocery shoppin.. dropped off the laptop to get it fix.. pigged out.. took a very longg nap && now im at home bored. blahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... i wan workout but im too tired hahahaha... hmmm what is there to do... gon bumm around nd watch tv, watch my TFC nd mayb pigg out again.. bohoooooo effffffffffff.. lol

well newhoo skool starts on monday for me =/ blahhhhhh

back on my prowl

lol nahhh ionooo..... w/e im not gon search imma wait for that right person for me (: .. i kno his out there sumwher looking for me.. hahahahha wtf.. ehhhhhh last night was one of the weirdest night ive had.. so hard to fall asleep >.< was hella tired eyes half close but brain wont turn off.. LMFAO im soooo tired rii nowwww..





well wat is there to do todayyyy o.O ... lalalalalalalalalalal ... i wann go sumwer but im too lazzie to go drive lol blahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh FML

something new about me

soo this summer i did alot of things to my body

1. got a 2nd hole to my ears

2. got my 1st tat


3. got my belly pierced

ignore d paper towel hanging.. haha i juz got it wen i took the pix soo i need to cover it lol


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nwayz ehhhhhhhhh im tired of being sad... i wan b happy again so im gon try to juz not worry bout watever is happening.. lalala hopefully im strong enuff to not cry nemorrr hahah..

FUCKKK

soo today started out great.. but few minz ago errthing changed.. i feel lyk shitt =/..
fckkkkkk... =/

i miss blogspot

nooo not relly.. hahahha jksss
damnnn i need to start postin blogs.. my page looks sooo ehhhh w/ one post every month or every oder month.. hahah soo yeaa imma make an effort of postin one every other DAYYYY (:


welll soo muchhhh had happend in my 2-3 weeks of not postin nethin.. lol lyk wen i say SOOO MUCHH.. i meant SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCHH. yuu hav noo ideaaa how crazzie this month had been.. haha but im not gon sayy it cuz today i juz wan post happy memoriez.. lol

sooo yesterday was sunday.. in the morning before church i was feeling ishh so i called sum1 nd we talkd for a lil den we decided wer gon talk more after church... went to church nd OHHHHHHHHHHH EMMMMMM GEEEEEEEEE.. it felt lyk GOD was talking to me.. lyk errthing the pastor was sayin had sumthin to do w/ me.. lyk ehhh iono soo hard to explain but i knew it was a sign... den dat afternoon me sum1 spent time together and we talked nd it felt good.. i havent felt that in awhile i hella missed it.. iono it juz made me happy..


&& now im off to go find my book.. hahah lmfao.. i lost it sumwer in the house or n d car.. ionoooo.... im actually reading NEW MOON.. lmfao iono its hella interesting.. im on page 90ishh out of 500ishh?? nd i only hav a week to finish it before i clean mitch's car.. bwhahaha ishhh watev i tried (not relly) hahaha jks..

updating lang

soooo damnn its been awhile.. hehehe juz been lazzie nd ddnt feel lyk sharing my life's drama.. bohoooo but watev i thot its bout time to let sum shiii out.. been carryin alot of weight juz need to take sum of it outtt

well newhoooo soo i dnt get how sumone who i cared alot bout cud think alot of ishhhh about me.. lyk i dnt get how he cud think i wan b part of sumthing soo messed up lyk that.. i thot he knws me better than that but i guess i was wrong... lyk seriously im soo LOSTT about all this ishhh o.O but ehhhhhhh i dnt wan think nemorr... imma let it be done defending myself all the time..

sooo SUMMMERRRRRSS finally here... been out w/ frenz almost errday.. been to 6flags , been to lake balboa, been go cart racing && moreeeeeeee... soo funn... i thot this summer was gon be lyk ishhh but nahhh its actually turning out AWESOMEEEEEEEEEEEE (:

i give up

i dnt wan think nemorr.. i dnt wann hope.. i dnt wann do anything... watever happenz happenz.. im tired BLAHHHHHHH

=/ im sickkk... have a fever nd my head hurts lyk shittt...
blahhh hopefully i get better...
im in SB supposed to go to the OC 2nyt w/ frenz to a party but iono =/ i dnt feel good..
so if i cnt take it then imma juz restt then go back to LA 2morow...
well iono wat esle to write so im outt

sooo tired

o.O well im bck in SB got home around 2/3ishh?!?? mahnn i was falling asleep on the freeway hahahhah... gon get ready after i blog then head back to LA to drive madirr sumwer den back to SB then im off again to LA til next week.. i swear i dnt wan leave that place i lyk it der muchooo hayyyzyzz... && ohhh my couzo said shes gon help me convince my mom to let me move there prolly on fall so i can go to skol there. hopefully she said yess (:

well i rely like last nii.. the talkz we had was amazing... i actually feel alot better it helpz alot cuz alot of questionz was answered.. basta (: .. if u dunno wat im talkin bout ishhhh dnt worry bout it its for me to know nd for u to find out. hahaha jks

well im off to LA again.. laterzzzzzzzzzzzzz

im in LA trickkkk

soooooooo if u read my blog frm few dayz ago which i deleted cuz its pointless.. well i actually deleted a whole bunch of blogs.. i said i was gon go away for a while.. well im blogging from North Hollywood rii now (: i left my place cuz i was goin crazzie there i cudnt handle stayin there.. &&&&&&&&&& i like it here ohh goshhh i sooo wan move here. hmmm shud i?? jksss iono one dayy... well im stayin at couzo's pad but since i got here i havent rely been stayin here hahhaha been out errday & errnight sleepin at frenz pad... nd since sunday i havent rely been sleeping well maybe for only lyk 1-2 hrs every night =/ but last night i finally slept for iono maybe 4-5?? hahahha better than before lolz.. soo yeaa i feel good rii now cuz im not that tired.. lol.. & damn ive been driving everywer >.< my allawance for gas is almost runnin out hahah ishhhh.. but wateverr...  

i feel kinda better now but hopefully soon i'll be GREAT (:
(f u dnt get wat i mean den dnt worry bout it.. lol)


mahnn my frenz nd i made planz for 2nyt but tang ina its ruind.. mom calld me last night tellin me i i need to go home 2nyt to drive her back here to LA 2morow.. blahhh damnit soo pissd.. i was hella excited been wanting to go w/ em for months but never had d chance til now but wtf... =/ nd i relly dnt wan go back to lame ass san bernardino... ohhh wellz..

soo farr

my stay here (wer??? dnt worry bout it lol) has been great.. (: only been here less than a day nd im already havin a blast.. juz got back lyk 2 hrz ago been out all nii nd goshh it feelz great not having anybody telling you to go home hahaha.. soo yeaa i havent slept nd im not even sleepy.. prolly gon go out pretty soon but iono shud i?? i dnt wan stay here nd b bored nd think >.< ...
blahhh well il update again later on how my day went (:

woke up earlie

hahah i was supposed to update yesterday on how the doctor nd my skool went.. but i forgot nd then i went off the comp earlie hahah ohh wellz il do it rii now..

hmmm the doctor went kayy.. mom's thing wasnt that serious .. they juz gaved her antibiotics.. the wait drove me crazzie tho.. o.O ohhemmgee i hate goin to the doctors .. takez forever.. i waited for mom for prolly 2-3 hrs.. i swearr i was dyin of boredom.. =/

after the doctors we went to Crafton Hills College to turn in paperz for my residency soo yeaaa my tuition went down frm 500ishh to iono 100ishh.. hahah.. hmmm i guess the drive isnt that bad either lyk i thot it was gon be superr farr but hmmmm the skol i was gon go to before isnt that far frm wer this one is.. nd its kinda pretty up there its on top of hte hill lotz of trees so it wnt be that hott.. nd ohh i start skool NEXT MONTHHH.. yayy??? lol the class is only 6 weeks long i go on TUES & THURS only.. hahah soo yeaa still have time to gala during the summer..

well my day juz barely started so i hav nuthin to rely tell for today.. soo yeaa il update later... nd foreals this time im relly gon update later.. lol

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UPDATING

well ders nuthin relly to update i didnt do ishhhh today.. picked up marlon at the train station around 10ishh... went home we wer starvin nooo food in the house so we bought THAI foodz yuummz then the rest of the time i was juz either online myspacin/blogging or watching all those drama on TFC.. haaha soo yeaa overall my day was BORINGG

&& ohh forgot to mention im CAR-less.. =/ marlon rented my car til saturday.. i needed the $$$$$ so i agreed... i needed to buy mark his ipod that was stolen in my carr wen it got broken into =/ lyk few months ago bohoooo mahnn cudve gone shoppin w/ that money mahn.. grrrrrrrr oh wel water.. lol..

hiii againnn

ohhh mahnn its been dayz since my last blogg..
this sites been stressin me out.. not being able to figure out why the COMMENT button wasnt showing.. went crazzie for 2 dayz looking for codes o.O nd i didnt have any luck so i quit usin it i didnt wan go PSYCHO crazzie again.. ahahha lmfao...
BUTTTTTTTT today i fixed it.. (: soo happy.. hahhaa

well anywhoooooooo rii now waitin for momz DR to call so we can go get her check.. =/
sumthings wrong w/ her dnt feel lyk goin into details.. but yeaa hopefully its nuthin too seriouss.. BUT im kinda scared.. hayyyyzzz

well after the DR's we might go to the college that im plannin to go to..
i did all the registration online but they need proff of residency so blahh hafta drive der nd show em paper stuff... its kinda farrr o.O lyk 30 minz drive errday soo ionoooo im kinda having 2nd thotz of goin there.. but hmmm il see laterr.. ive never been to that school.. but alot of ppl told me bout it nd all of em sounds GOOD.. hahah soo yeaa imma go look around laterrr...
hopefully i lyk it.. lolz i relly need to go back to school.. been bummin around for lyk 4 months now.. NOO JOB.. NOO SCHOOL.. o.O its gettin iffin boring.. hahhaa

well il update laterr on on how the DR nd the school went hmmkayy (:

new layout

whoaaa i lyk my new layout.. (: workd on it for lyk 5 hrs.. hahahah >.<>

well today lyk i said i didnt go newer cuz i was workin on the layout..
blahh my head actually hurt been on the comp wayyyyyy too longg...
well gon get off after thiss post.. blahhh im hella hungryyy but i dnt wan eat.. im actually on a diet rii now cuz ive been w/e bout my weight nd i got chubby =/ soo yeaa time to get back in shape.. i might juz eat sum bread..

well im done.. head hurtin lyk ishhh..
cnt take it nemorr...