feelings

sooooooo diz past few days iv been kinda feelin crappy... i feel like sumthins happenin behind my back.. like iono when u have that weird gut feelin.. wel thatz how i feel rii now nd that shii's been bringing me down... iono if i juz think too much but ionoo usually wen shit like diz happens im RIGHT nd rii now im scared to be right =/...

"Tears are the safety valve of the heart when too much pressure is laid on it."

what am i doin??

lyk seriously iono what im doin nemorr.. sometimes i wonder if im still  doin the right thing.. but as off rii now i feel lyk errtthing im doin is wrong... i rely dont think i deserve all diz shittt but suckss that thats wat im recieving nd thats wat im feeling... as of rii now nothin can possibly change my mind bout how i think bout everything.. been so naive but now i been woken up, been shook, been bump in the head.. ughhh fuckk dizzz all i need is a good cry washh all these emotions away nd il b good.. FUCK IT, FUCK IT FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKK IT

weekdays

ehhhh my weekdays?? same old same old... ddnt rely do muchh... i started working out the other day but ehhhhhhh its wateve i ddnt rely do much cuz stomach started hurtin.. errr stupid monthly thing.. lmao.. but atleast i worked out hahha.. well heres a pix of me on my workout break hahaha.. but damn diz past few days i started eating like crazy again.. ughh stupid bombass chicken... lmao


well the only interesting part of my weekdays s when my baby comes over after skool to chill w/ me =]]... sooo 2 days ago it was sunny && pretty outside so my boyfren nd i walked around our neighborhood.. so bf decided to walk up this hill we got 1/10th of the way nd he was lyk "LETS GO BACK" hahahahah LMFAO woww baby woww.. lmao jkk i was glad he said that i was gettin tired too hahaha... then Thanh nd Van wanted to go swimming at my house i told bf d waters cold but he didnt tell them they got here jump in the pool got out right away nd called it quits hahahaaha.. d waters prolly like 40ishh degrees lmao...

but yesterday was the highlight of my week =]]... after skool baby came over..we chilled nd watch movies.. then at night we we went outside it was pretty chill d weather was hella niceeeeeeeeee... it reminded me of the 1st time we started talkin.. when he visits me at night and we would talk nd chill outside for hours.. idk i can still remember how i was still kinda shy around him haha.. our getting to know each other moments idk it felt good...well we played taptap battle hahahha childish but hella cuteeeeeeee.. I like how we do the randomishhh stuff nd we make it funn =]]..

weekend stuff

 i wasnt able to update what  happend saturday because i was too mad yesterday..  LMAO.. but since im happy again here i am updating HAHAHAH...  saturday was soo muchh funn... went to a party w/ frenz nd it was hella crackin... boifren was soo drunkk that he danced like crazzy.. lmao i swear he was too hyper && freaky that night hahaha && I LIKEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE  ;p haha... &&&&&&& ohh so proud of me though i didnt really drink that night i had half a bottle of this girlie drink nd omg i swear that thing tasted lyk juice so i dnt think that relly counts as drinking sumthin?? well i dnt think so.. lolx soo yeaa was sippin on WATER the whole night lmao =p hahahha who goes to a party nd drinks water?? RHONAAAAAA mah nigga lol.. woww i didnt think i would pull off this LIVIN THE SOBBER LIFE shitt but omg its been 3 weeks that iv been sayin noo to alcohol.. yup yup alcohol is officially ex'd out of my life hehe...

soo boifred put a heart design on his hair for vday =] soo cuteeeee... yesterday even though my boifren nd i wasnt in good terms most of the day we still made up nd spent valentines together.. soo like after work he came over nd made me feel better.. i blogged bout this already but imma say it again.. omg i swear to BOB(lol) everytime im mad at him all he needs to go is hug me nd i swear it always make me feel better nd makes watever wtf feeling im having go away..idk thats soo weird because knowing me im a hard headed nd stuburn person its kinda hard for me to let things go that easily but with him bein mad at him doesnt really work for a long period of time.. ohh goshh babylove what did you do to me?? hahahha lmao.. goshhh i iffin love that boy so muchhh... <333..


well heres some piktures we took at the party.. click em to enlarge em

happy fuckin valentines day

wowwwww its vday nd im feelin shitttieee... errthing was goin great last night nd what the fuck out of nower errthings changed???????? REALLY NOWW?? im soo confused rii now im bein accused of doin GOD knws what since he wudnt tell me.. but what the fuck i didnt do shittttttttttttttt last night.. "im disloyal?"  disloyal howw??? wowww the only people talkd to there last night was the FOBs (who are basically like my brothersss)... -_______________________-.. nd disloyal bout what??? our relationship.. wowwww iv never cheated on any of my ex's why start now when everything's goin soo well??? ERRRR... cnt believe this, why do people always b thinking shitt bout me =[[... diz shitt suckss i wanted to a have a good time today since its our vday together but how we supposed to do that now...ehhhh wateverr i have nuthin to explain bout, GOD knows i didnt do anything wrong last night nd i would never do anything stupid to ruin this relationship.. but wateverrrrr im tired of people always be thinking shitt bout me and i dont need it most especially from YOU.. soo blahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh IDGAF nmorr im tired of thinking wer i went wrong... && f you dnt wan tell me, dnt be tellin me nuthins wrong cuz im not stupidd not to know sumthins wrongggg....

well HAPPY FCKIN VALENTINES DAY errone.. i hpe u guys have a good one..

soooooooooooo

last night went to like 2 parties... both had fights in it.. ohhgez why cnt people juz get along.. hahahha lmao yeaa right that wud b the day haha....got hella mad at the boifren last night -___________________- blahhhhh.. soo like i dnt care if he talks to girls.. i dnt mind that & theres nothin wrong bout that especially if their his frenz but for him to juz leave me like that... errrr pisssddd me off.. i kinda sorta keep my cool >.< tho i juz stayed quiet haha... damn i can soo see the changes in me.. usually shit like this i wud soo make a big deal nd start drama but ehh i guess iv change.. nd its for the better hahahaha...  soo got home he stayed nd talkd to me.. took me awhile to tell him whats wrong hahah ..wasnt gon tell him but errr hate it wen im mad nd he smiles, hugs me && kiss me cuz my anger juz disappear.. hahah i dont think that fair errr lmao jk....  i could never stay mad at him for a long time he always know how to cheer me up =]]] <33333..

soo my bby's valentines day gift came in the mail today =]].. i kno its a day early  but watever... omg i cudnt stop smillin wen i opend it.. hahah sooooo pretttyyy.. thank you baby.. I LOVE YOU SOOOO MUCHH

yada yada yada

lmao i don't know i couldn't think of a title. so are you asking why im writting w/ perfect spelling and everything? i don't know i haven't done it like this in awhile and i'm really starting to get bad with spelling so in this post im going to try to spell everything right. hopefully i don't get tired of it hahahha blah blah i'm really bored as you can tell..



i just have to post this picture up... my nephew Jason. cute-ass baby i swear.. errrr so mad tho i want to post the video up but i don't know my phone is retarded i cant send it and i can't upload it to the comp errrr sooo stupid but i'll figure it out



omgoshhhhhhhh i NEEEEEEEEEED to blog about what happend on saturday. i want to be able to look back at this blog in the future and laugh because saturday was EPIC. so my boifren got caught being in my room.. hahahhaha  -_____________- the hidding in the closet thing was hillarious i don't know its too funny for me i can still remember everything hahahha... && instead of getting scared and shiit i was laughing the whole time i was being lectured.. ohhhgoshh mommy dearest when are you going to stop treating me like a child.. Lmao... so i told my brother about it and instead of asking me if mom iffing tried to kill me because of it he ask if mom found out bout the secret passage hahahahahhahah ohhhgezz brother!! hahahha funny night i swear!

well today was fun. woke up around 2ish in the morning because few of my friends came over and was having a drinking session in my house. so fun to actually see drunk people haha because shit, it's usually me crawling and doing stupid shit. but thats going to change from now on because rhona is living the sobber life ;] yuppppp! you heard/read it right hahahah...  overall TODAY WAS A GOOOOOOOOOOD DAY!

I LOVE YOU TOMMY NGUYEN =]
love spending time with you. i look forward to it every second, every minute, every hour, everyday. i kno its only been a few hours since i last saw you but i miss you dearly.. can't wait to see you 2morow mahal.. you mamamamake me happy  <333

new look

-___________- so iv had my blonde hair for lyk what 2 yerz now nd yesterday i finally decided to dye it.. i wanted brown-ishh color but my shiii came out super ugly omg i swear i wanted to cry wen i saw it hahahaha so ehhh i went all the way back to blackk.. stil not use to seein myself w/ hella dark hair... i guess it looks ok ehhh wateverr its juz hairrr wen i get a job imma fix it.. il update later nd put pix up =]]

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soooooo my bday commin up =]]
wat do i want?? a PUG puppy hahaha lmao.. omg iv been lookin errwer online for em nd iffin expensive blahhhhhh i swear wen i get a job few of the 1st things on my list to buy are are CANNON cam & a PUG puppy lmao =]]..

well my day juz started so i hav nuthin rely to say ill update later

im happy

well my last post was WTF lmao... well me nd the bf are OK now.. wer happier than ever.. I LOVE YOU Tommy.. mahnn i love the weekdays cuz he comes over after skol =]]]]]]]].. love spendin time w/ my boifren.. we take naps nd play around esp the dayz wer we have the house to ourselves LOVEEEEEEEEEEEE IT haha... sooo i tink it was a mistake to tell him his fart was cute cuz now he fartz wayy too much -________- hahahah it dosnt bother me tho i tink its hilarious hahahaha wer one odd couple i swear .. but thats what i love bout diz relationship its not always serious.. its not boring cuz we do things that both make us laugh we do the stupidest nd the randomest things that make diz relationship interesting ;]]]..

wel lotz of events happenin diz month iffin exited =]]]]]]]]]]]]