Bloggin frm my fon since d internet at home is bein retarded blahhh... Wel nwhoo woww iv realized sooo much last night.. Wen ppl get high der supposd to feel good but yesterday instead of feelin good i was scared as fuck.. I guess thats d effect of thinking way too much these past few dayz.. Idk lately iv juz been feelin blahhh alwayz sad bout stupid shittt.. Worryin bout shiitt i shudnt even b worryin bout nd last night i guess while bein on cloud 9 all those emotions came out.. I swear weirdest feeling evr idk i thot i was gon die haha.. Fuck it.. I finally realized i dnt wan waste my tym stressin myself bout anythin.. Iv been through alot things n my life alredy i dnt need diz rii now or evr.. I need to b strong i guess u can say imma kinda sorta bring d bitch bak n me haha.. Idk been too soft nd friendly nd kind nd nice all dat good girl status bullshit.. Nd ehh look wat it made me *paraniod* blahhh... So i promise myself sumting has to change in order for me to be bak to normal nd to be a chill person that i used to be.. Hehe i can do diz!!!

ehhhh so i promised myself starting last night after my boifren nd i talkd that im gon stop thinking too much nd that im not gon let anything or anyone get into me =]]]... soo yesterday i finally told him something that's been buggin me for awhile now.. glad that shitz over now it seriously feels good to finally let it out hahaha... ughh idk i used to b chill bout stuff but now im starting to get ehhhh paraniod nd gets jelous nd mad over lil stuff.. I HATEEEEEE IT.. i shud get my act straight i hate worryin nd stressing over dumb shittt.....

&&& juz want to say thank you to my niggy Jordan juz incase your reading diz lol.. uv been there for me through alot of my shit.. u listend nd helped me through alot of things.. so grateful i have a friend like you... THANK YOU mah niggy...

well omg lotz of things happend last week but ehhh im lazzy to update rii now so il do late laterrr =]]..

Im at d point of my life rii now wer i wan juz give up on everyting.. Im sick nd tired of tryin so hard to please everybody but i feel like im worthless.. Everything i do is not enough. Everything i do is wrong. I dnt know what to do anymore.. I miss my dad & lolo if they wer here my life wud b so much different.. Sumtimes i wonder f i follow them how wud ppl around me feel, wud their life b so much better wid me gone?? Ha prolly.. Im sick nd tired of life. But im tryn so hard to b strong cuz i kno my dad & lolo wnt me to fight diz nd b strong like how dey taught me to be.. I juz feel so alone && i miss havin ppl havin my bak.. Kunting tiis nlang.. Kunting tiis >.<

hmmmmmmm

yuppppppppppppppppp lol

Another crappy shitie night... Idk even tho we talkd bout it nd fixd it i cnt seem to stop cryin rii now.. I guess im goin to cry myself to sleep 2nii.. Fml

memories

 soo diz post is gon consist of hella old nd embarrassin pikturess..  saw an old pix at my friends blog so thought might as well post the other old pix.. hahhahahah soo here it go...

OHH MYY GULAYYYYYY.. soo i was on my frenz tumblr nd i saw piktures from 7-8 yerz ago.. hahah omg im laughin soo hard that im cryin... omg hahhaha wowwwwww -_____________________-... && i agree w/ what clyze said..

one word: HORRIBLE
actually! two words: EXTREMELY HORRIBLE!....

sooo diz clyze nd i.. hahahahhaha tell me why i look  tomboy-ishh... lmao hahahahhaha omg how embarrassin >.<

sinulog 05/06??? i dnt know hahahahha 

omg i think sophomore year?? hahahhha w/ Princess, Angela, Ashton nd Victoria

halloweeen 06/07??? haha 

lmfao at my bro nd alex hahaha










LMFAO AT MARLON ND MY BRO HAHAHAHHA

<-- my 16th bdayyy....

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  me, lovely, rr, ray nell & clyze in the back  

                   
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i dnt knooo ahhaa

 
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 LMFAO as my hair hahahahha






<- hahhahahhaah at my brother




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ray nd nell.. lmao
 

  

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idk  lol

weekend

my weekend was pretty chill especially my SATURDAY && SUNDAY... i like days like these, hella chill... soooooo todayyy spent most of the day w/ the boifren went to visit him at work then after we went to the movies & watched Brooklyns Finest & Shutter Island both r helllllllllaaaaaaaa good movie, especially Shutter Island the twist was fckin crazzzzyyyyy lol.. diff recomend people to watch it... soo while at the movies i accidentally called my friend Erick hahahah oppsss.. but i mean it was good hearing frm him its been more than a year since i last time i saw & talked to him wel text dsnt rely count hahahaha lmao.. && if ur reading diz wers mah KObe tickets bestfrennnn??? hahahahah lol...sooo juz few minz ago i realized that Lovely & mah niggy Jordan's bday is on d same day hahahaha niceeeeee lol.. sooo im xcited for that because i get to see diz both niggas soon since i havnt seen em in awhile =/..... well its gettin hella late nd my eyes are half shut soo i shud go to bed.. lmao G'NITEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

friends

yesterday even though i was having a shiittie nd fucked up day there's stil some good things that happened to me.. im thankfull for the people i call MY FRIENDS because they never fail to let me down nd there always there for me to cheer me up nd make me feel that im not alone.. im not gon name everyone because you guys already kno who you are.. seriously w/out all of you guys i prolly wudve gaved up on everything longg time ago but u guys give me strength nd courage to keep goin nd be strong.. I FUCKINNN LOVE YOU GUYSS.. i might not say it or show it but i do im very thankfull that i have people like u guys in my lifee..

&& for diz 2 person *high five, low five, air five* && *my niggy*  (huhhh whoo?? hahaha i dnt wan give names bcuz ppl that i ddnt name might get hurt soo ehh better like diz lmao) i dnt even kno wer to begin.. but THANK YOU thank you for always bein there for me =].. i had all these thoughts of what to say bout u guys wen i was thinking of writting diz blog but now im speechless haha >.< i guess theres soo much to say but idk iono wer to start.. wel i dnt rely need to write it because u guys already kno how grateful i am to have u guys in my life =]...

mahnn juz last week i was all thinking that i have nobody to rely call my CLOSE FRIENDS but shittt i was wrong.. after yesterday i realized i have ALOTTTTTTTTTT of close friends that cares nd love me =]]] nd im fuckin happy to kno that... now im finally gon start nd acting right... iv ignored alot of people in my life for a long time && iv stayed lowkey for awhile && been soo quiet but now im BACKKK lmao errbodyz gon be seein nd hearing alot from me now... yupp i guess u can say the old rhona is back ;] ...

wowwwww

sooo today was browsin nd i saw sumthin that pissd me the fuckk offff...

lyk seriously??? thats how u gon play me??.. well too bad you CAN'T , nobody ever has nd your not goin to b the 1st...cnt believe i thought i can trust you... but woww ur juz lyk one themmm...

ughhhh fuckkk dizzz...

survey

You are getting ready to go to bed and the last person you kissed shows up?
- i dnt mind.. his seen me lookin lyk a bumm so it dsnt matter how i look i dnt hafta change nd ishh hahaha

If your phone goes off during the night, do you answer it?
- i always hav my fon on vibrate nd wen im asleep i dnt hear my fon haha

Do you want to be in a relationship?
- already am =] && yess i do want it

Do you think its cute when someone kisses your forehead?
- ohhhhh yezz =]

Has anyone admitted anything to you in the past week?
- yea

Was last night terrible?
- yeaa.. bcuz i ddnt tink he wud hangup but he did =// errr pissd me off

Do you want to see somebody right now?
- yesss but ehh hes studyin

How many people have you kissed in the past week?
- ONEEEEEE =]]

When will the next time you will be kissing somebody?
- 2morow

What was your last thought before you went to bed last night?
- bad stuff.. was hella pissd

Are you a jealous person?
- yeaa very

Do you trust your gut instinct?
- sometimes.. bcuz sumtimes i juz thinkk too muchh

Does anyone call you babe?
- yupp

What is your CURRENT relationship status?
- IN A RELATIONSHIP

Would you rather tell somebody how you feel straight up or wait?
- most of the time i wait til im calm then i say it

Would you prefer a kiss on the cheek or neck?
- bothh plz zlol

If someone had ask you to move with them out of state right now would you?
- nahhh im stayin in CA til i die.. lmao

Are you a very nice person?
- most of the time

Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
- ohhhyess i wud ;]

Did you drink anything alcoholic this week?
- Nopee been sobber for awhile now

How many times have you kissed the last person you kissed?
- alooooooooooooooooooooot.

Do you watch MTV anymore?
- yess

Is your hair naturally straight?
- if i air dry it its a lil wavy.. but if i blow it its straight

What was the last thing you bought?
- food

Did you have a good day yesterday?
- yess.

Be honest, do you have feelings towards anyone?
- yess my boifren

Will tomorrow be better than today?
- I hope soo .

If someone gave you $1,000 would you spend it or save it?
- Spend it

Who was your last received phone call from?
- i missd my bf's call

When was the last time you were REALLY happy?
- todayyyyyyyyy

Has someone ever drunk/high text/called you?
- Hahaa , yeaah .

Would you prefer to eat or sleep?
- rii now i would prefer to sleep bcuz i hav a headache

Did you accept your last friend request?
- on FB yess.. on Myspace i still hav 4 pending haha

How are you feeling right at this moment?
- Tiredd but haaappy .

How much money did you spend last month?
- hmmm like 50ishh??

What did you last cry over?
- him hanging up on me last night lol

What did you have for breakfast?
- adobo that i made last night

Have you ever had sex on the beach?
- nope

Who was the last person to text you?
- my bro

Where did you last go to?
- ddnt go newer today

Are you happy with your life right now?
- its okayy cud be better if i really wnt to.. need to stop bein soo lazzy ughh

Do you think that someone is thinking about you right now?
- who knows .

Last person you rode in the car with?
- tommy yesterday

What pissed you off today?
- him hanging up on me last night.. ughhhhhhhhh lolx

one of those days where i 

question myself if i did the right 

thing... OR  if its worth it... OR 

if i should keep goin or stop.. =/


"GUGMANG GIATAY" FUCKKKKK IT