no control

todayy iv been gettin different kinds of emotions..
lyk im happy den next minute im sad then next im angry.. WAT THE FUCKK IS GOIN ON.. =/ i swearr i woke up around 7ishh today nd i was pissd as fckkk cuz of sumthing.. then i went back to sleep nd i woke up happy... then i was goin thru my piktures nd i saw piktures frm the past nd it made me cry haha >.< ughhh damnittt
i hate diz i feel hella BI POLOR lol.. ehhh wateverrr

well rii now tryin to decide weither i shud party in LA or here in SB idk ughhh watever happenz happen =]]]]]]

cnt stop smilling =]]]

sooo today went to skol late like always hahah
stayed in my spanish class the wholeeeee time lmfao..cuz these past few dayz i always leave class for an hr to go see him but today i ddnt to see him =/ thats the only sad part bout my morning..
went to math class.. && so i talkd to diz guy frm class nd omg his half filipino nd he was all lyk "i like ur tat" hahaha.. stayed in class for an hr then left.. while walkin diz two random guys came up to me nd said my tat is koo.. hahahha my tat is gettin hella attention today gezz lol ..

soo i was textin himm earlier rii nd he tried to text me in tagalog it was sooooo cutee nd even tho wat he was sayin was wrong it was iffin adorable.. so i had to bust out asking my Vietnamese frens how to say stuff nd online translation it was funnn (: i like how he said "GUSTO KONG YAKAPIN MO MASYADONG" lol iono f he said he wnts to hug me or he wnts me to hug him LOL hahahhah (:.. idk rii now i cnt stoppp smilingggg..     


i wnt to see him soo bad rii now but ehh we cnt... he has test to study soo i guess fon is OK for 2nii haaha && pluz i hav alot of art project due 2morow >.< shii i shud start on that soon... ehhh idk its gon b weird not seeing him before i sleep

well idk wat else to sayy..SOO IM OUTTT =]

updatingggg

soooo yheaa its been dayz since my last update been lazzie nd i rely had nuthin to update bout but now i do soo here i am.. LMFAO

well these past few days had been GREATTTT (:
been happyyyyy againn goshh i dnt remember the last time i was diz happy hahaha
but idk im relly scaredd >.< i juz dnt wan get hurt again.. but ehhh watever risk is a part of life juz like wat the sayin say "If you risk nothing, then you risk everything."

soo yeaa theres diz one boi nd he makes me soo happy idk wat he has he juz makes me smile all d time.. he stayz out late w/ me even tho he has work d nxt day.. he always bust out missions for me.. idk overall his awesome.. =]
but idk last nii he said sumthing that kinda bothered me >.< ionoooo... but watever im not gon let it bother me i meannn if he says i hav nuthin to worry bout then i have nuthin to worry bout.. I GUESS.. lol hahah eff not gon tink bout diz nemor

well today is monday again blahh skool.. but watever it means imma see him at skol (: so its koo.. lol... i dnt even kno f we hav HW or not hahaha ishh too lazzy to check.. wel im off gon get ready..

i feel soo fat

uhhhgg i need to start dieting/working out.. bohoooo i feel lyk a whale =/.. i eat 3-5 times a dayy OHHHEMMGEEE yuckkk.. lol i can actually see it in my face its gettin wideerrr soo grostt.. soo yeaa starting today imm limit my eating to once a day.... i cnt deal w/ the fatness its makin me deppress hahahahah lookie my stomach soo widee.. noo moree "coca cola body".. haha u gotta b filipino to kno that insiderrr I THINKK.. lol


well rii now im watching DEGRASSI GOES TO HOLLYWOOD.. hahah yess i watch that showw lol hahahah sooo bored...

randommness

blahhh today ddnt do muchh... went grocery shoppin.. dropped off the laptop to get it fix.. pigged out.. took a very longg nap && now im at home bored. blahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... i wan workout but im too tired hahahaha... hmmm what is there to do... gon bumm around nd watch tv, watch my TFC nd mayb pigg out again.. bohoooooo effffffffffff.. lol

well newhoo skool starts on monday for me =/ blahhhhhh

back on my prowl

lol nahhh ionooo..... w/e im not gon search imma wait for that right person for me (: .. i kno his out there sumwher looking for me.. hahahahha wtf.. ehhhhhh last night was one of the weirdest night ive had.. so hard to fall asleep >.< was hella tired eyes half close but brain wont turn off.. LMFAO im soooo tired rii nowwww..





well wat is there to do todayyyy o.O ... lalalalalalalalalalal ... i wann go sumwer but im too lazzie to go drive lol blahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh FML

something new about me

soo this summer i did alot of things to my body

1. got a 2nd hole to my ears

2. got my 1st tat


3. got my belly pierced

ignore d paper towel hanging.. haha i juz got it wen i took the pix soo i need to cover it lol


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nwayz ehhhhhhhhh im tired of being sad... i wan b happy again so im gon try to juz not worry bout watever is happening.. lalala hopefully im strong enuff to not cry nemorrr hahah..

FUCKKK

soo today started out great.. but few minz ago errthing changed.. i feel lyk shitt =/..
fckkkkkk... =/

i miss blogspot

nooo not relly.. hahahha jksss
damnnn i need to start postin blogs.. my page looks sooo ehhhh w/ one post every month or every oder month.. hahah soo yeaa imma make an effort of postin one every other DAYYYY (:


welll soo muchhhh had happend in my 2-3 weeks of not postin nethin.. lol lyk wen i say SOOO MUCHH.. i meant SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCHH. yuu hav noo ideaaa how crazzie this month had been.. haha but im not gon sayy it cuz today i juz wan post happy memoriez.. lol

sooo yesterday was sunday.. in the morning before church i was feeling ishh so i called sum1 nd we talkd for a lil den we decided wer gon talk more after church... went to church nd OHHHHHHHHHHH EMMMMMM GEEEEEEEEE.. it felt lyk GOD was talking to me.. lyk errthing the pastor was sayin had sumthin to do w/ me.. lyk ehhh iono soo hard to explain but i knew it was a sign... den dat afternoon me sum1 spent time together and we talked nd it felt good.. i havent felt that in awhile i hella missed it.. iono it juz made me happy..


&& now im off to go find my book.. hahah lmfao.. i lost it sumwer in the house or n d car.. ionoooo.... im actually reading NEW MOON.. lmfao iono its hella interesting.. im on page 90ishh out of 500ishh?? nd i only hav a week to finish it before i clean mitch's car.. bwhahaha ishhh watev i tried (not relly) hahaha jks..

updating lang

soooo damnn its been awhile.. hehehe juz been lazzie nd ddnt feel lyk sharing my life's drama.. bohoooo but watev i thot its bout time to let sum shiii out.. been carryin alot of weight juz need to take sum of it outtt

well newhoooo soo i dnt get how sumone who i cared alot bout cud think alot of ishhhh about me.. lyk i dnt get how he cud think i wan b part of sumthing soo messed up lyk that.. i thot he knws me better than that but i guess i was wrong... lyk seriously im soo LOSTT about all this ishhh o.O but ehhhhhhh i dnt wan think nemorr... imma let it be done defending myself all the time..

sooo SUMMMERRRRRSS finally here... been out w/ frenz almost errday.. been to 6flags , been to lake balboa, been go cart racing && moreeeeeeee... soo funn... i thot this summer was gon be lyk ishhh but nahhh its actually turning out AWESOMEEEEEEEEEEEE (: