unproductive

omg i was sleepin basically d whole day today efff... i woke up around 9ishh nd i was kinda annoyed bout sumthing so my morning was blahhhhhhhhhhhhh...  i juz bummd it watched movies then got tired so i went to sleep nd woke up again around 3ishh.. mahnn soo unproductive bohoooo....

can u believe i was hella nice to my mom for the past 3 days.. did mostly errthing she told me to do w/out complanin >.<.. whyyyy??? soo she'll leave 2morow nd i can throw my boifren a bday kickback at my house.. lmao... sooo lotz of things to do 2morow.. take my mom to Victorville her nd auntie wnts to shop so hafta drive them around.. come home around prolly 12ishh then start cleaningg then around 7ishhh goin to SINULOG '10.. wohoooooooooo kinda excited... then boifren's bday kickback.. =]]]]... not gon drink tho gon stay hella sobber that night I PROMISEEE!!! lolx

well iono wat else to write so il update laterr maybe.....

slackin

@ 11:16 pm

juz updatin... i change mah layout =]] wohooo its bout time ive that old mezz for months it was gettin hella old... idk how to fix d middle part tried to find a code for it but iono how to fix it so ehh fuck it still look nice =]]....

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well skol started monday but me nd my bro lagged it so we didnt get any classes so ehhhhhh >.< fuckk wer screwed... well idk i myt b able to do pharmacy tech so idk il see bout that.. if not then i guess imma chill diz sem nd find a job >.< blahh gayyyy.. since monday been hanging-out alot w/ the boifren esp at skol.. but thats gon change after today cuz i wnt b goin to skol blahhh lameeeeasssshitt.. ehhhh gon try to rely b productive diz sem if i dnt go to skol.. i swear imma try to find a job.. i rely wan do pharmacy tech but that mezz is 3K so ehhh idk..

well iono wat else to write sooo blahh latez

neww stories

woww i noticed iv been blogging once a month hahahha >.< thats bad.. my poor page look so lonelyyy haahah && i need to change my layout o.O its gettin old haha well newhoo ohh goshh its DEC already.. Christmas is commin fastt nd 09 is bout to end ohh damnn..09 has been the crazziest yer of my whole entire life.. all the dramas, the fights, the fun, loosing && gaining of frenz,.... mahnn idk but im hella ready for yer 2010 to comee..



well last night i kinda broke down infrnt of my bf >.< ehhh.. idk i juz think too muchh nd i let get into me... but glad to kno he really does care... he came over even tho it was hella late nd he has skol earlie in the morning for me it proves alot cuz he ddnt juz ignore how i feel nd he actually wantd to comfort me.. i ddnt tell him the reason tho && i dnt wanna tell him the reason.. i mean idk i shudv but i dnt see the point it was my fault i saw all those but still.. ehh imma let diz one pass but next tym it happenz im not gon stay quiet... well cause of last night i learnd that i shud put my guard up even tho u trust that person alot humanz are humans there gon messd up at sum point nd i dnt wan wait for that day to come nd i have nuthin guardin me...
i lyk him alot && i already love him... im rely scared ughhhhhhhhhh
"GUGMANG GI ATAY" maoray maka patay lol...

rollercoaster day

sooo 11/11/09 is prolly the most random-ishh, gayy-ishh, suck-ishh nd OK day of my life.. lol..

got in a lil fyt w/ the boifren =/... i guess that was kinda sorta our 1st fyt.. lol.. it was cuz of sumthing stupid but ehhh watever we fixed it nd now wer goood again..

woke up nd got a call frm my aunt that my lola / grandma in the PHIL (wel shes my real grandma's sister.. shes d only lola i grew up w/ cuz most of my lola live far or died already) =/ so that made my day crappy.. RIP lola Oning.. i kno ur in GOD's hand now =]...

&&& d rest of the day i was out w/ my mom shoppin furnitures nd things for hte house.. i like our house nowww wohoooo.. &&& ohh i forgot to blog bout thiz but i moved to a new house hahaha soo yeaa thatz why wer decoratin..

well imma go get ready gon hangout w/ the boifren =]

pissdd off

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr i swear to BOB(lol) diz biotch is pissin the shii out of me.. diz past few mnth iv been holding it in tryin so hard not to let it bother me but i swear it juz keepz gettin worste nd worste fckk.. i swear she needs to fuckin back off nd mind her own shittttttttttttttttttt >=/.. nd let me fckin be...
she might think i dnt notice it bcuz im not sayin nething but juz keep pushin my buttons biotch nd il show u wsuhppp... ya'll kno im nice but fck me over nd il show u wsuhp..

ehhhhh people these dayz..nd ohh forgot to say the reason why im soo pissd is bcuz diz is the 2nd time diz happend.. it happened before.. goshh SHEEE JUZ LOVEE TO MEZZ W/ THINGS I LIKE.. FUCK YOU HOEEE

ehhhh

bcuz i feel sad so im blogging lol


ehhhhhhhhhhhh watever mahnnn im done showing how i feel to people..ive been so weak nd too emotional.. i tink its time for me too start keeping how i feel to myself nd not show too much nd care too muchh... (: yeaa imma do that..

well juz had a serious talk w/ him nd i mean its not even bad i get wer his commin frm but idk it fckin made me sad.. hahaha fckk dumbasss me.. i shudnt let it affect me but it is... but ehhh it made me realized stuff so i guess.. =]]

well ehhhh iono wat else to say so byeezz

no control

todayy iv been gettin different kinds of emotions..
lyk im happy den next minute im sad then next im angry.. WAT THE FUCKK IS GOIN ON.. =/ i swearr i woke up around 7ishh today nd i was pissd as fckkk cuz of sumthing.. then i went back to sleep nd i woke up happy... then i was goin thru my piktures nd i saw piktures frm the past nd it made me cry haha >.< ughhh damnittt
i hate diz i feel hella BI POLOR lol.. ehhh wateverrr

well rii now tryin to decide weither i shud party in LA or here in SB idk ughhh watever happenz happen =]]]]]]

cnt stop smilling =]]]

sooo today went to skol late like always hahah
stayed in my spanish class the wholeeeee time lmfao..cuz these past few dayz i always leave class for an hr to go see him but today i ddnt to see him =/ thats the only sad part bout my morning..
went to math class.. && so i talkd to diz guy frm class nd omg his half filipino nd he was all lyk "i like ur tat" hahaha.. stayed in class for an hr then left.. while walkin diz two random guys came up to me nd said my tat is koo.. hahahha my tat is gettin hella attention today gezz lol ..

soo i was textin himm earlier rii nd he tried to text me in tagalog it was sooooo cutee nd even tho wat he was sayin was wrong it was iffin adorable.. so i had to bust out asking my Vietnamese frens how to say stuff nd online translation it was funnn (: i like how he said "GUSTO KONG YAKAPIN MO MASYADONG" lol iono f he said he wnts to hug me or he wnts me to hug him LOL hahahhah (:.. idk rii now i cnt stoppp smilingggg..     


i wnt to see him soo bad rii now but ehh we cnt... he has test to study soo i guess fon is OK for 2nii haaha && pluz i hav alot of art project due 2morow >.< shii i shud start on that soon... ehhh idk its gon b weird not seeing him before i sleep

well idk wat else to sayy..SOO IM OUTTT =]

updatingggg

soooo yheaa its been dayz since my last update been lazzie nd i rely had nuthin to update bout but now i do soo here i am.. LMFAO

well these past few days had been GREATTTT (:
been happyyyyy againn goshh i dnt remember the last time i was diz happy hahaha
but idk im relly scaredd >.< i juz dnt wan get hurt again.. but ehhh watever risk is a part of life juz like wat the sayin say "If you risk nothing, then you risk everything."

soo yeaa theres diz one boi nd he makes me soo happy idk wat he has he juz makes me smile all d time.. he stayz out late w/ me even tho he has work d nxt day.. he always bust out missions for me.. idk overall his awesome.. =]
but idk last nii he said sumthing that kinda bothered me >.< ionoooo... but watever im not gon let it bother me i meannn if he says i hav nuthin to worry bout then i have nuthin to worry bout.. I GUESS.. lol hahah eff not gon tink bout diz nemor

well today is monday again blahh skool.. but watever it means imma see him at skol (: so its koo.. lol... i dnt even kno f we hav HW or not hahaha ishh too lazzy to check.. wel im off gon get ready..

i feel soo fat

uhhhgg i need to start dieting/working out.. bohoooo i feel lyk a whale =/.. i eat 3-5 times a dayy OHHHEMMGEEE yuckkk.. lol i can actually see it in my face its gettin wideerrr soo grostt.. soo yeaa starting today imm limit my eating to once a day.... i cnt deal w/ the fatness its makin me deppress hahahahah lookie my stomach soo widee.. noo moree "coca cola body".. haha u gotta b filipino to kno that insiderrr I THINKK.. lol


well rii now im watching DEGRASSI GOES TO HOLLYWOOD.. hahah yess i watch that showw lol hahahah sooo bored...